If I ever needed help from anyone, it's now. I know a lot of you are going through rough patches right now, so I can't ask you directly, however if you know anyone who can help I'd appreciate it more than anything...

I desperately need a way to obtain a permanent visa in Australia so that I can stay here with not only friends I love, but the man I love as well. I have no school records, the uni's here won't recognize me, nor the tafes or the high schools... I have no previous employers from the states to prove I've worked, nor degrees or any paperwork stating I can do any specific kind of work. I have no family here, and no money as it is. I can't seem to find anyone for commission work, whether it be simple digital art, or making a website. Some of the universities here would still cost $10k even if I could get into them. Certain laws here keep me from just marrying someone to stay in the country, so I'm running low on options. Went to Immigration, went to MRC, went to some other place that I can't recall the name to but had to do with U.S stuff, which told me they couldn't do CRAP for a U.S citizen... That doesn't make much sense as it is... I've even tried contacting the DCF legal team hoping they could come up with at least SOME SORT of paperwork, or a notarized statement saying they've lost my school records, as they're entirely the reason they were lost in the first place. Unfortunately, they've yet to respond and will only respond via postal mail [ I mailed them before July 28th, so unless they're taking their sweetass time, I don't know why they haven't responded yet ].

It comes down to this... I'm running out of options. I only have until October... Please, I beg of you, if there's anything you can think of to help me, whether it's to help with the visa situation, or some sort of commission to earn some money for myself, I'd appreciate it so much...

In the past week, I've had to see doctor after doctor with no medical insurance, because my legs went numb and then started causing me excruciating pain. They believe a disc in my spine is hitting a nerve, because it's also affecting my lower back. I've had to use crutches and take painkillers... I'm currently off the crutches but will probably end up needing them again at any rate. I've also been experiencing abdominal pain, in which the doctor requests I get an ultrasound done, along with an x-ray for my back. At the moment, it's too expensive, so I'll have to live with the pain, physically, and mentally from the stress of not knowing what's wrong with me. Again, I need help, and the only place I can look to now is you guys, my friends, my family...

Tomorrow [ Today, now that it's 3am, and I'm still suffering a bit from my insomnia ] I'll be seeing someone to help ease some mental trauma caused by my past, and what my cousin did to me, physically, mentally, emotionally. It may be the only way I'll ever get over my fear of men, and many other fears as well, and get on with my life... Can only hope for the best at this point.

Anyways, it's late, I need sleep, and I'm stressing myself out too much... Night <3